Feet to my Faith - Episode 1
The Absence of a Miracle. The thing he was supposed to do. The thing you prayed every day on your knees for...that didn’t happen. That friend who died. Thay child who lost a parent. That job you were fired from. That friend that failed you.
We all have that thing. The thing that was supposed to happen. The way it was supposed to go. The absence of the miracle you prayed for.
I feel this question pops up a lot, “why did this happen”. It can come from a nonbeliever, or someone challenging your faith. Or it can come more stubbly in the way of a fellow Christian asking for help and prayers because they are walking through a hard season not knowing why.
Have you ever considered the Lord brings us to these points in our lives to see what we do with disappointment? Come read John 11:17-43 with me. You will see disappointment. You will see heartbreak. You will see, Mary and Martha praying for a miracle. Their brother is dying. They call on the Lord. Heck they send a messenger to fetch Jesus because they were sure he would come save Lazarus. And when he didn’t come - can you imagine the disappointment? The hurt? The pain? Their brother just died and they knew Jesus could save him.
OK so I’ve felt pain and disappointment...but I’ve never had to watch my sister die knowing that someone could have come save her - and didn’t. That would be Grade A pain. 10/10. And yet, when Jesus finally comes to Bethany, Martha runs to meet him and says in verse 21
“Lord,” Martha said to Jesus, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died. 22 But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.”
Martha is confessing her faith - in the absence of the miracle she so desperately prayed for. And then we see Mary in verse 32
32 When Mary reached the place where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet and said, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.”
How often do you fall at God’s feet with your frustrations? Mary did. How often do we fall at his feet with our disappointments? Are we confessing our faith when we are denied the miracle? Or are we only confessing our faith when the seas are calm and everything is how it should be.
I believe the Lord chose not to save Lazarus from death so that he could show us the power of having faith through the disappointments. Mary did. Martha did. And in verse 43 he rewarded that faith.
43 When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” 44 The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face.
Jesus said to them, “Take off the grave clothes and let him go.”
What is your Lazarus? What is that one thing that the Lord didn’t do for you. Whatever it is, I pray that your faith will be unwavering. He is sending you through the sea so that you will believe.
I have been sent through that pain. I got sent through two years of wondering “what is happening”. I got sent through having to say the words that would rip my family apart. I got sent through anger and frustration and heartbreak. And as hard as it was and as many times as I prayed and prayed for healing for my family - I am so glad that the Lord made me walk through it. Because through it is where I got to see him. And I’m not just talking about hindsight. This isn’t me just looking back and seeing how it all worked out for the better. No no, God met me there. In the depths of the pain. He didn’t make the pain go away, but he was 100% there holding my hand through it.
The places you didn’t expect to be is right where he is standing, reaching out his hand begging you to hold on. I would not trust him as much if I hadn’t had to walk through the fire. I wouldn’t know the depths of his love and his empathy. Verse 36 says, “Jesus wept”. Because before he could demonstrate his power - before he could bring Lazarus back to life - he had to show us his empathy. He is not making you walk through the fire alone - but he sent the fire so that you could run to him, take your disappointments to him, and fully cling to and trust in him. My prayer for this week is to have faith more like Mary and Martha … how can I pray for you?
Putting feet to my faith and saying Jesus I trust you. ♡Kaila Anne